God is very artistic. I know He created the world and
everything in it, but today I actually stopped to think about it. I was looking
at palm trees (Imagine that! Palm trees in Florida.) and was taken by their
unique appearance. Nearby were some short, stubby bushes; they had a completely
different leaf and size. If God made something as simple as trees to be that
diverse imagine how big our God really is. And then another thought popped into
my head: Do you think God paints the sky every day? I would like to think so.
Each morning He grabs His brush and goes to work. Some days He only paints a
beautiful blue shade, other days He decided to add wisps of clouds, and other
days He decides to paint a dark and gloomy rain storm. Yeah, I like this
thought quite a bit. It’s comforting. And leaves me in awe.
I spend several days, weeks, and even months chewing on a
particular word or concept or attribute of God. I never get to a final answer
but I come to understand it more as time goes on. God slowly introduces knew
words/concepts/attributes. Peace was a theme for a while, and now that it’s a
part of my life, God has been able to teach me about love. And now He is
bringing the idea of “following Him on a daily basis” alongside this quest for
understanding love.
It’s easy to “follow God.” That is very general. Here is my
life, as a whole. But what about, “Here is my day, God. What do you want me to
do today?” Yikes. That means truly
surrendering. Truly losing control. Well, I have to go to work at 11 o’clock
today, that’s a given. But what about before work? What about after work? What
about during work? Letting Him guide
every minute is scary because it means I’m not in control.
The Bible tells us not to worry about tomorrow. Another easy
one. I’m not worried about tomorrow.
I just think about it all day today. Each day I’m continually thinking about
what I’m planning to do tomorrow.
Example: A friend is supposed to bring cookies to a party.
She shows up empty handed. I say to her, “Don’t worry about it!” Or… “Don’t
think about it!” I want her to come in and forget about the cookies and enjoy
the partying that is happening now.
So when Jesus told us to not worry about tomorrow, He was
actually telling us to not think about tomorrow. Focus on today. Focus on right
now. Focus on what He has given you up to this point.
It’s a challenge, but ultimately it’s freeing.
I had a day off from work today and so I decided to follow
God. I opened my eyes, before I even got out of bed, and said, “Okay, Lord.
What do you want to do today?” First we went to the beach. I was really
expecting Him to speak to me in profound ways, because I was feeling all, “led
by the Spirit,” but He was just there. With me. I read my Bible and prayed and
He was there. I was a little frustrated at first because I wanted to know why
God brought me out to the beach if He wasn’t going to tell me anything, but then
as time went on I realized that this was a part of teaching me how to follow
Him on a daily/hourly basis. I don’t always need a huge confirmation. He has revealed
Himself to me and shown me His character. Isn’t that enough confirmation to
trust Him on a daily basis? Do I really need a letter in the mail telling me to
go to the beach? Can’t I just do what God says without expecting something
great? Because isn’t just being with Him (period) great? Yes.
I needed to call T-Mobile today to get some things
straightened out. I was bracing myself for being on hold for an hour, talking
to someone who clearly knew nothing about their job and didn’t care about my situation,
but I got the complete opposite. I was barely on hold for five minutes. The
representative was cheerful and willing to do what needed to be done.
God wants to be a part of our day. He cares that I needed to
deal with T-Mobile. He knows that I enjoy being outside, and that I enjoy
painting and baking and writing (all things I got to do today).
There is less struggle to make it through the day when God
is the one leading. Things flow naturally.
So, if God leads each day, then He leads each week, each month,
each year and ultimately your whole life.
I believe I have been following God. He revealed His plan to
me and while I didn’t jump on it right away, I didn’t run from it either. (Satan
is the father of confusion.) God did bring me down to Florida, but it was only
for a short time period. I thought I was coming down here to go to school and
create a new life for myself. God brought me to Florida to prepare me for the
future. He needed to remove me from everything (even my own family) so I could
become the person He created me to be. Also, I can’t help but wonder if God was
using this to show me that I can move
and I can handle transitions. Yes,
they’re not very fun and easy, but they are manageable, with His help. And
while I have not fully evolved (that is something that will take the rest of my
life) He has brought the next step before me.
On June 30th I will be boarding yet another plane
and heading back to the beautiful land of Rwanda. God has done an incredible
work in my life this past year in both North Carolina and in Florida. Now it is
time for me to go back to my family and back to a country I consider to be a
home. I could not be more excited. It’s hard to continue to move from place to
place, to establish a life only to be uprooted, but it is the life God is asking
me to live. There are many possibilities in Rwanda. God will continue to open
doors for me because He is the one in the lead. Today. Tomorrow. Next Week.
June 30th. Always.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not lean on your
own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your
paths.”